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So I havent updated in a long time, but Im back at school and have nothing better to do. The last couple of days have been pretty boring since nobody is up here yet. I have hungout with Garcia a lot and Beth a little...and thats it. See not too exciting. Its wierd being in this apartment by myself...its kind of lonely. The other night I watched Sin City with Jeremy and he left...so I was by myself and that movie freaked me out. Elijah Wood will never be froto again..that was a rough night lol. I also watched XXX State of the Union and Wedding Date. Neither were as good as I had hoped. It took me all the way to Friday to get the motivation to unpack my stuff and I have been here since Monday. Its amazing tho...its only friday and already me and derek are not getting along the best. It seems like all we do anymore is fight. Well not alwayz but the last month I would say. I don't know..its like the longer we're together the less effort he puts into us and I dont feel extremely special anymore. We got in a huge fight the other night about it and he was like no thats not true and I got really mad and was like "you dont answer your phone calls, we dont talk anymore except maybe 5 minutes a day, you were so hell bent on being grand rapids..he interrupted.. and I was like Bullshit Derek I wasnt even enough to keep you home for the last week I was there. For Christmas I picked out my own present, I didnt even get anything on Valentines Day, and Im going to be lucky if I see you on my birthday" He didnt have a whole lot to say. Right now Im just incredibly pissed cuz he promised me he was going to come up and see me since I am by myself...but since yesterday he forgot somehow. I called him and he was like whats wrong and I was just like nothing and hes like okay Ill call you later. I don't know what to think about all of this stuff....and its only the beginning of the year. I dont want to not be with him but Im seriously tempted to take a break :(
August 22 2005, 01:56:00 UTC 6 years ago